Well I guess most of you figured out the meaning behind the past few posts. Thank you to those that have asked personally, and, who is most curious about what has happened.
Despite the fact that I would love to share the details because according to certain people, sharing is caring, I think the details behind the scenes need not be disclosed. Taking into account that I have familie(s) (Read : S) that I care about, it would only be fair if everything stayed in the shadows. Heck, yes, I'm now a single lady again. There is bound to be speculations. Bound to be people stalking my every move and word and status on facebook twitter. There will be people who say I am trying hard or they will justify my actions all this while but to me, it doesn't bother me anymore.
To me, I am just a 26 year old woman who, at this point, is stronger then I've ever been. Alhamdulillah I am not bitter, nor insane masyaAllah. I am not mad, or resent what has happened. Life is beautiful. If that one incident left me with a whole new sense of fulfillment and makes me a better person, I embrace it. I am cherished and loved.
At the beginning, the idea of even being divorced scared the hell out of me. What will people say? What will people think of me? But here I am, alone if not of my in laws especially Kak Ngah and Kak long and sisters at heart *hugs*, and what others say wont change the fact nor change what has happened. It wont change how I feel, wont change a single thing. But hey, it's not the end of the world. To be frank, I am, happy and okay.
I'm ok.
To those who are worried, genuinely cares and are really concerned for me, Thank you for being so thoughtful and generous with your wishes and prayers. There is no need to be sad, or be in disbelief. As cliche as it may sound, Firdaus and I weren't meant to be. yes : takda jodoh . And, Firdaus will always be the one that used to touch and have a special place in my heart. No hard feelings, despite whatever happened. And I wish him love and courage and strength.
As Elton John sang : It's written in the stars. Or was it Eric Clapton?
30 comments:
there is a quote for u sis:
If plan A fails, remember there are 25 more letters. =)
go go chaiyuk sis.
salam dear...yes...akak baca ur blog since u bujang until u married...pastu tiba2 akak lost...pastu tiba2 jumpa blk log nih..dan akak musykil what really happened to you...tapi dik...its not the end of life kan...sabar...allah tau ape yang terbaik buat hamba-Nya..
terharu rasanye..bila u can stand on it...alhamdullillah...tak tau nk ckp klu ianya jadi pada diri akak..
semoga makin tabah...makin kuat utk tempuh hari2 akan dtg demi sang kecil itu.
salam perkenalan dari akak!
Oshin-right now im using a new font of alphabets :). but thanks though .:).awak ni ada je kan hehe.
Kak zimah-haha kak thats not my son.its my brothers'.but thanks for following and the wishes.do i have u on facebook¿
Kak zimah-on another note "TUHAN TAKKAN bebankan hambanya melainkan dia mampu menanggungnya" is completely right.Dugaan manusia datang dalam berbagai cara.Dah memang tertulis jodoh sampai takat ni je kan.redha je lah.nak meroyan pn bukan dpt apa.Hope noone had to go thru it though.
yeayyy!! you go girl! sayang awak to the moon and back!!!
hi nawal..
erm how to start..i'm ur silent reader.. since u start blog bout ur wedding..till now..=)
i haven't met u before..but for some reason bile bace dis entry dis morning..Ya Allah..God knows how deep it was affected me..i drove away from JB back to KL dis evening (from work)..and all the way..i was thinking about u and how u went thru dis..
untill now i was lying on my bed ..and cant stop think about u..[hence, the comment]..
i know, people can say thing that may help to ease the pain [though, its actually not at all]..but babe..u been so strong..Allah choose u, because HE know u can go thru dis..
we give the hardest to fight for what we want but things not always turn out the way yg kite nak..this is part of life..a process than can better ourselves and make us stronger..toughen up and move on babe..u can do this..my pray will always be with u ok..inshaAllah u'll be better in time=)
bye mak beruang comel.
cuyaduya - the moon is too close. sayang u to pluto and back. !!
shilz - hello there silent reader. Thank you for the humbling comment. People like you is the main reason i love blogging in the first place;we meet all sorts of sincere thoughtful people :)
Thank you for the prayers sweetie. Yes, I truly believe that God choose the ones he Tested and we have been tested in a way or two, if we realize it or not. I am truly blessed with family and friends and inlaws who are very supportive in one way or another. WE can choose to be mad and bitter and miserable or we can choose to be happy and wise and well..happpy :)
sorry for filling up your mind for the couple of hours back to KL lol. Hope it wasnt too much haha.
Have a nice weekend :)
satu je aku nak komen.
ko nampak matang dalam entry ni. chewah. haha
Nawal,
seyes terkejut..rase cam baru je semalam aku dtg umah ko n tolong isi doorgift..
tp betul,semuanya kite serah pada tuhan,dan think positive...
Aku respect ko mmg tabah!
Take care, i'm alwiz pray for your happiness!
Babe,akulah org yg so scared nk tanya tu..sbb takut kecikkan hati or else.but everything happen for a reason.because i've gone through it before..whateva happen stay strong!bebel byk skit..cheers..haha
Now br i tau kenape u x tau laksa johor sedap kt mana :p
well...life hv to move on.
things happened and it will bring u higher,keep u stronger and makes u matured.
ujian hamba allah nie berbeza tp yg pasti setiap hambanya pasti diuji.
Bile diri diselubungi kelam dan hujan,senyumlah sbb allah nk hadiahkan awk pelangi. Insyallah...
Take care Nawal!
Almost everyday terjah your blog before sis got married lagi. Dari Ini Perempuan Jujur then lost then jumpa balik. Itu pun sebab jumpa balik under comment your SSF, The Aalia. Hehhh
Pernah jugak nak tanya sebab every your picture mesti sis sorang. Kt FB pun sama, punyalah silent reader. Hehe
Keep stronger sis. Allah is always by your side.
Insyaallah.
MasyaAllah..
semoga terus tabah, yea Nawal..
Tertanya tanya gak lepas baca entry lepas, tapi tak tertanya tanya tuan badan..
InsyaAllah, Allah Maha Mengetahui ;)
Dear Nawal
Whatever it is...
saya tetap nak cakap, awak makin berseri :)
itu lah kelebihnnya bila kita redha...
Keep it up dear :)
hahahhah.tu la bahana bila dh tercicir kan.tak kisah la...anak abg pon cam anak kita jugak kan...tehehheheh...
hahahha...takdak la dik...cuma like kat u punya studio tu sajorkk sbb suka giler baju empire waist tu walaupun sungguh-tak-padan-dengan-badan-yang-comel-umpama-beruang nehh...tpi now akak (azlina azizi)sent request...sila approved eh...hahahhah
Aku pun nak komen satu jer. HAHA tiru moose.
Kau tabah & kuat!
Strong babe! #chanteks always love you!! :)
moose-cecece
yati - thanks babe :)
fika- thanks babe. its hard to come out of the shell cause you never know how everything will effect you. Im ok. im fine :)
nadia natrah - kalau i tak divorce pon i tak tahu kat mana :p.
miss ika-alololo thanks :). thealiaa tu memang bermusim dah tinggalkan blog dia. supermommy hehe
fathihiah - insyaAllah. :)
iza-thank u iza. yes memang redha dan berserah tu satu kepuasan :)
kak azlina-bapa banyak alterego ada ni ? azimah la azlina la. hehe. approve sudeh...eh kan?
balkiz - because of #chanteks kekeke .
be strong sis..and keep on smiling...!
hi..
i'm ur silent reader..since dri blog perempuan jujur lg..
always remember this..'tiada perpisahan yang sia-sia'..
Allah merancang sesuatu yg lebih baik untuk anda..bersangka baik pada-Nya.
-nur-
I was very much occupied with work and missed this. I kind of guessed it, from your fb status and whatnot but dared not asked because well, people need to be respected of their privacy. But in all, I really cannot imagine how you went through this but from the sound of our post, you took it with dignity and maturity. For that, I honestly wish you happiness in the many years to come. Insya allah, everything happens for a reason. Chin up and toughen up girl. Hugs!
qis-thanks adik :)
nur - Allah rancang semua cantik dah kan. Redha la. Takpa, tu semua proses belajar. Thanks nur :)
TSS- Things are pretty obvious right but I try to downplay it cause we don't know what will happen in the future. I grew maturely over time as all this happened. If there's months of crying, there's also months of self reflection and for that I cant complain much. Life is too short for all that, yes? Thanks for the wishes. Im so thankful i dont end up bitter and resentful.
hahhhaa...org yg sama je dik nonnnn...muhehehheheh
aku dpt tau dr adik aku, xmampu nk tny, tak terkeluar soklan tu,hny mampu doakan dr jauh je, tp bila tgk ko tampak happy aku tau ko kuat n tabah!
mak beruang hebak! ;p
Kalau....
Moose said...
satu je aku nak komen.
ko nampak matang dalam entry ni. chewah. haha
hazlynda said...
dua je aku nak komen.
aku setuju dengan Moose.
u still have us babe!
HAHA ;P
Salam nawal,
im one of those yg wondering what had happened. i read your other blog before n we did ym sekejap dulu and lost after a while.After i myself gone through hardship juga, but mine happened before the engagement.
And yes, Allah knows best. Percayalah Dia akan bagi lebih. You pun makin cantik n berseri.:)InsyaAllah one day Allah will grant us our wish to be in a halal relationship, with peace in mind.
“When you are tested, it is never to destroy you. Whenever something is removed from your possession, it is only to empty your hands for an even better gift.”-Ibn Al-Qayyim
June-yeah adik kau tanya aku kan. aku jawab je la. LOL. thanks june. :)
it hasnt been easy but its not impossible kan. nak taknak kena sabar kan :)
lunda-i have chanteks! yeahhh!!!
nughol-hi nurul. (i assume) thank u for your wishes. makin berseri tu tak tau la. agaknya sebab redha kan? makin gemok adala hehe pipi apam manis
speechless...
but nawal, u r really strong girl. eeh, no more girl. STRONG LADY.
anor & adik (sekali dtg ngan anor on ur big day) tertanya2 gak. nak tanya tuan badan takde daya. since tak rapat mana & menyentuh sensitiviti kaum. erk!
insyaALLAH, yang baik sedang menanti. teruskan keceriaan yg ada. ramai yg doakan yg terbaik buat nawal.
i've been so occupied with work lately sampai missed baca byk blog.
i second everything that has been said. chin up, be strong, u'll come out stronger than you were before ;) Or in this case, sbb dekat 2 bulan dah lepas, bet you are stronger than you were 2 years ago, not tht i know or can even imagine how it is like, cuma advice camtu bole apply gak kot in all situations kot, insyaAllah...
geez, ive been calling u kak nawal yet kita sebaya hihi...
and yes i am so lembab, baru tergerak nak baca ur blog after u post ur pretty happy picture dkat fb smlm hihi... nak wish tahniah but i will wish on the latest post la kan "kak" nawal hihi... hugsss
anor - insyaAllah bila kita redha, semua jadi lain :) thanks anor
sumpit - actually its been more than 2 months. i am, stronger in so many ways than what i used to be. insyaAllah only through hardship, will we come out wiser and mature.
anis - haha sapa suruh panggil kak nawal? kan dah malu kui3.
i only post happy pictures now, insyaAllah teehee. thank u . "adik' teehee. :)
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